[lastyvesniin] It's Not Even Midsummer and It's So Hot (250608)

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I write for the first time in so long

I've been too busy this whole time but also there were a lot of little things to take care of.....

But after putting in a lot of effort this week, work got done early and the things I needed to do got delivered early too

so my weekend is so relaxed

I ate at home and did this crafts thing..? (I'm supposed to make three-dimensional shapes out of paper, I bought it a while back and did it all of a sudden) And after I finished crafting I had nothing to do

(I always need something to work on, otherwise I get anxious)

So I was reading a book, and then I realized for the past month I've only stayed at home

If it wasn't to work

So I did this thing called going outside intentionally

Immediately went to the cafe to write on the blog,......

It is already June

Which is to say it has been an incredibly long time since I stopped writing on the blog

I didn't even remember what kind of topics I used to write on

So I asked the fans for topic ideas

And a lot of people asked for life updates blogging

So I will write a shabby life update blog post...

Even if you feel like, "How old are the stories this girl is telling"

I hope you will look upon me kindly

When I went on the Europe tour...!

I wasn't supposed to have an off day, but I think one got freed up? So

Even in the rain, I was excited and danced in front of the hotel entrance

And the stylist dongsaeng took these for me ㅎㅎ

That day I went out to buy vintage accessories and ate delicious sushi

The timing was then last year...? Is that right

What will I do if it's not. But it's not surprising because

North America and South America were such a blur that I don't remember what months I visited them in

Why did time pass so quickly?

I read somewhere that when you feel like time is passing too quickly

You should do planks

That really is right though

When you plank you end up thinking that time should pass a bit more quickly

And you realize, was 1 minute this precious and long of a time

Why did I live so carelessly this whole time. And you reflect on your actions

I was looking for tour photos that I hadn't posted

And I found this

I'm posting this because my abs are easily visible

I don't see abs anymore when I look with my eyes

But when I see photos or videos that the fans took

They do look visible when I perform

It's fascinating and also strange but

If it was the other way around, that would be so sad

So I have decided to be content.

I think this photo was taken after the Europe tour

The Grounds shoes' soles are really palpable

I think it was in South America? Where I was dancing wearing those

And I felt like I'd slip so hard on that slippery stage

So during blackout in the middle of the show I took off the shoes.

Even if I get shorter, I can't accept falling down....

But I guess that went up on TikTok

My friend asked me why I was taking off my shoes on stage, what a ridiculous incident

When I dance, if my shoes are bothering me, my whole attention goes to the shoes

and I can't focus on anything else

So before shows, I fix them really tightly and wear double socks

and tie the laces tight too

But if the stage is slippery that can't be helped

I should have done better....

So when something like that happens, I blame myself and I get sad

And after the performance I stay dejected in my room

And I keep thinking back to that moment...

A selfie from some point

I think bangs make a really big difference

My mom says I look better with bangs

The fans say I look more like a 'woman' without

But I think this saying, "Unnie you're like a woman", is so funny and cute

I've never been a man, so when they say I'm a woman

It's like they're drawing out a certain expression of theirs to the maximum extent

So it's so funny and cute

Lately I've gotten older so

Almost everyone is a younger fan

And they're so cute

Via message they're like "Sooyoung-ah"

But when we meet they become shy girls...

I cannot help but love them

When I'm at home I can truly 'never' sit still

So I paint unidentifiable things

While I'm painting it's so fun and time flies

But afterwards I wonder what this is...

But from a distance it looks like flowers in a vase

So I titled it Flower ㅎㅎ;

I have more things I drew but I'll post those later

Engdus have already gotten to see

I got dressed and I felt like I'd seen this somewhere

I thought about it more and it was this kid

This is a different day but lately I've been wearing those pants so often

Of course I'm wearing them right now too

Comfy is the best now for real

It's so good for

going on walks while listening to music on a cool evening

There was once I time when I couldn't understand

the advice to go on a walk when you have a lot of thoughts

No like how am I supposed to go out when I'm lethargic

But when you pick your body up and force yourself to go

You just end up walking

And focusing on the music

And thinking, Oh I want to cover this song

If it's a problem that won't get resolved no matter how much I stew and worry over it

It feels right to just let it go

As time passes, according to the way of the world~..

If it doesn't go well, there will be a meaning in accordance with that

If it goes well, then it went well so there is nothing better

This is so funny

Kim Dohyeon went to Ddobogessji Tteokbokki? to eat

And said she found my name

I tracked down the culprit by sending it on Fromm

And found her right away

When I thought about it, I'd seen this handwriting often in letters

So I thought, why didn't I recognize it

What a cute incident

5/24

My birthday,,.!

I've never looked forward to my birthday, ever since I was little

That was the same this year, but when I went to my birthday cafe and exhibit

The fans had sweated to wait and prepare for me

They sang for me to make me happy...

I really almost cried

What is love; this is such an obvious question but

When I see the fans I always learn

I want to keep learning

And I want to give back a lot too

I always feel guilty because I'm always only receiving

(I'm listening to a sad song right now and tears are suddenly welling up so let me stop writing)

The strawberry sando I like

It's so good and I tried making it at home too but

Buying it outside is the best

Right now is dieting period so I can't eat these and I'm sad

You wait just a little bit

I think this was when I went to the IFC Mall with unnie-ya

When we were little I fought so much with my sister and treated her like my nemesis

Every time, Mom: "When I'm dead and gone it's just gonna be you two, why do you fight so much!"

And now that we're grown I like unnie so much and she's so precious to me

But I still want Mom to live long

The day I had wine outdoors with my friend

This place is really nice

The spot is in Yeonnam-dong? Poongwall!

The terrace is on the roof so it is a little difficult

to carry food and drink up there but it's still romantic

["Time that can't be turned back"]

It is already June 8

And almost time for dinner

I feel like I just ate lunch.

Putting the earnest New Year's wishes to shame

I have gone through half of an arid year

But if you asked me if I want to go back, I would say I like it right now

Parting with my pup, which tore my heart apart two years ago

That moment when I held my first solo showcase

Meeting fans tens of thousands of kilometers away

I believe all of that is serendipity

And there is meaning in it all

So I wish to not obsess over relations and happenings of the past

And experience the present and calmly encounter the sorrows and joys of the future too

Recently, the fans have been often telling me that they want to be happy.

When I hear that, I want to do anything I can do make them happy

So I look up meaningful quotes

And I collect all of the green-glowing expressions within me

To write and send in a message.

Even the pain receptors that process spicy flavor are different for every person

So the weight you feel in hardship, the mood you feel in joy

How different those must be too

And yet I still want this to be consolation to you

And so I write a blog post yet again!

(So funny how I'm talking like I blog every day)

Even in the midsummer heat that is to come

Please be happy!