[lastyvesniin] Please Be Happy (251222)

[Link to original blog post]

The once-thick calendar hangs pitifully, all torn.

The one last page.

The final page.

December had felt so far and yet it's come.

To me, that's what December is.

Something I want to avoid with any excuse possible,

and something I must still experience so diligently

'Let's make sure to be happier next year'

That next year I'd spoken of countless times

passed so fast that I can hardly remember it

And as I've always done

with the corner of this year folded

I stand looking into next year.

What would be a good excuse I could come up with

My age ending in nine, yes, that would be a good one.

If this were a game, I'm on the last lap of my 20s

struggling to end on a high note.

Though I may have had to restart several times after dying.

The world is actually pretty full of excuses to make,

like the three-year disaster cycle or the ages ending in nine,

so I felt like it's good for telling myself it's not my fault and brushing it off.

That works for me but

what about my three fish that went to the Underwater Kingdom

and my Hong Kong palm that withered

and my grandmother who ages more every time I see her

Why must they be the case

I tried to collect appropriate answers for good excuses

but there's nothing that worked

and all I could do was mutter to myself in the deep of the night.

Thankfully, tomorrow always comes.

It becomes today.

Then it becomes yesterday

and becomes the past.

It fades from memory.

I like that part but

it also scares me, so I keep a diary.

There's a stack of diaries that are only written near the front.

Eating well and sleeping well

So natural and yet

sometimes so difficult that you can't do them.

To spend a meaningful day

complete, yet only known to myself

I vowed to myself to begin living the small routines well.

Even if they will be waved away with excuses one day

This is a place called Dowon in Yeonnam-dong.

I saw it on Instagram and went with my friend of 12 years

and we enjoyed the cozy and warm atmosphere so we stayed for a long time.

Also the owner-nim kept giving us things on the house... Thank you!

I was deep into the new Daniel Caesar at the time, and my friend liked Kim Kwang-seok sunbaenim's song.

It was such a precious experience to listen to music we like on LP

and maybe because I'm tearier these days, when I heard "The Story of an Old Couple in Their 60s" that played afterwards, I almost cried but I resisted well!

Lately I have been reading Harry Potter.

I get to picture the things that were never in the movies

so I think this is even more fun and immersive.

Since I'm not promoting right now, I have more time

so I've been able to look over various Internet comments and feedback

and though sometimes I found good direction in the feedback

as expected, a lot of them gnawed away at my heart

so it hurt a little bit.

In those times, I used to avoid them with sleep, but now I am seeking solutions healthily by reading.

I'm not good at focusing on one book so I'm reading a few at a time, and that helps a lot.

When I read I forget about reality for a little while

Is this also healthy avoidance?

Anyway, sometimes I find sentences that speak to me and have resonance

so I recommend it.

The sukiyaki I made for Gowon when she came over

The persimmons that someone from the company gave me

The snack from a fan which was so good that I took a photo to remember

A certain day's meal that I made for my sister

The crab soup I made for the first time

The banchan I made for unnie because she was craving them

This is also kimbap I made for unnie to take to the studio

I was singing my craving for hotcakes to the fans

and ended up making these hotcakes

When I cook, I'm worrying about burning the food or having the wrong salt level

which makes me forget stray thoughts

and focus on cooking.

And when I see friends or family enjoy the food I made

it makes me several times happier.

Which makes me want to keep cooking tasty things for them.

Everyone, delivery food is good too but please try cooking at least one meal.

It's good for your body and for your soul.

This is chocolate I bought from Muji and this was also so tasty that I took a photo to remember.

I heard it's a winter seasonal item, so I need to stock up before winter ends.

This is the toast I've been having for breakfast a lot lately.

It's very simple yet hearty so I recommend it.

I think the cinnamon powder is the kick.

My sister and I love hair pins.

After collecting them one by one we've ended up with this many,

and if someone sees they must think we have ten heads.....

Always using a pin when I wash my face!

The sticker book I work on when I'm bored

You can get one for cheap on Temu,

and all you need to do is apply stickers according to the drawing

Good for passing the time and this is also nice for forgetting stray thoughts.

Simple, but a good way to de-stress in a healthy way.

I haven't been sleeping well lately, so on this day I just stayed up all night and then got ready to go out.

The house is normally decorated black-and-wood

but we gave it a little warmth for the winter.

How is it?

The fabric on the wall is handmade by Mom.

The home seems warmer, perhaps because Mom made it.

Selfie I took at the office

Lately I am hard at work on the next album.

Often I feel low self-esteem because it doesn't go the way I want

but when I think about the fans who cheer for me

I can't not overcome it.

Because no matter what others say, I am a cherished person to you fans.

A certain fan once told me.

Just as much the fans cherish you,

Sooyoung too must cherish yourself.

I, who hadn't taken good care of myself,

heard that and felt sorry to me.

So these days I'm preparing my meals prettily with lots of heart to eat well

and trying to sleep well warmly

and becoming a healthier me to share healthy feelings around me.

I don't know whom and how far this writing will reach

but I wish earnestly that everyone that I connect with through this post

will be happy, that their hearts will not be injured.

It is the edge of a bitterly cold December.

From another perspective, we stand at the entrance of next year.

An end is sorrowful, but a beginning is exciting.

Wishing dearly that 2026 will be short on the sadness and abundant on the happiness

let us live another tomorrow.